27122009

tat day is sunday...
goin bk kampar in the afternoon...
morning me n my family went Kenny Roggers...
have a great meal to celebrate my bro's bday...
nice meal..bt is kinda expensive abit...

Iced Chocolatious Milk RM 6.50

Chicken Pasta & meal set ( Chessy Chicken) with coleslaw RM 18.90

Chicken Pasta & meal set (macaroni with beef bolognise) with vegetables salad RM18.90

Chicken Pasta & meal set (spaghetti with beef bolognise) with vege, tomato, onion salad RM18.90

Chicken Pasta & meal set (macaroni with beef bolognise) with fresh fruit salad RM18.90

wahhh....feel hungry now ler...
coz waiting to eat McD again later...
BigMac n McFlurry...im coming...=p

26122009

the day after the lonely christmas...
kinda tired tat day...
coz last nite 4 sumthg in the midnight oni slp...
watched movie of “赤壁2”..
and another one act by 谢霆锋，余文乐，房租名etc...
bt rili dunno wat the movie's title...
so the next day damn sleepy...
nid to drive whole day...
goin for the appointment of dental...
den fetch my bro from skul after his koko...
fetch him bk hum bath den went cut hair...
kinda bik chek tat day...
coz when i take a nap half way..
my dad called and ask many ques..
rili frustrated v it...
den when i wana go fetch my bro from skul...
an idiot park his car right in the middle of the 巷口...
WTF...how cars goin out o...
i hon loudly so that ppl get alert..
the idiot is an indian with his family...
nvr paiseh n say sry bcoz blocking ppl...
rili no brain n no manners...
den when drive on road...
many stupid drivers make me bik chek...
drive carelessly...
after i fetch my bro from skul..
bring him went hair cut...
after that when v are leaving the place...
i reverse back slowly form my parking site...
i reverse rili v slow...coz i cant see the car coming...
bt den when i reverse...a van came...
it nvr breaks or slow down...
the driver tot can pass over me so did not slow down...
wat happen?? bang my car butt la...
wth...my car oledi half way outside the parking site ady...
the van should stop or slow down ma...
rili damn unlucky...
sumore nid to compensate the uncle rm80...
his car jz a little hurt la...
my car oni worst arr...
see...



dunno nid how much to repair it ler...
rili v sad tat time...
christmas eve tat time yau 4gt swtich off the light cause the car cant start...
now yau car accident...
how my parents can dun worry when i drive out alone??
i oso loss the confident of driving ler...
these days try not to drive my dad's car ler...
i oso feel heart pain when c the car hurts lidat...>.<

hot n cold...

hmm...
is a lonely christmas...
goin to spend my christmas at hum...
not goin anywhere..
jz to rest here...
the early morning jau have bad mood ady...
y? y? y?
is u again...
myself oso sien er...owiz moody bcoz of u...
wrote a long msg to u last nite..
after 1hr..got ur reply..
bt ur reply seems fu hin me...
say wat dunwan stay here..no memories here...
wat a gud ans...not related to wat i said oso...
early morning saw ur personal message ady...
the kind of feel is..im thinking u...bt u thinking others...
walao...wat kind of relationship is dis??
test tat few days...
owiz saw u chatting on phone..
the mood gud dou...
jealous yau dim?? ur freedom...
wat i do?? jz see n thinking nonsense myself...
tired v ur hot n cold...
when u happy, think of me, den find me..
when there is others, nvr think dou me...treat me cool...
i had did my best to treat u gud, make u happy...
try to help u to solve problems if i can..
i dun wish to get bk any profits..or benefits..
but at least u will appreciate n feel grateful..
n not treating me lidat...giving me hope..treat me hot n cold as u like...
yday chat v leen...talking bt LOVE izzit simple...
i ans no...no last time tat kind of pure love which no flirting..no hurting...
feel ngam den 2gether??
funny haha...now de?? sure one side will suffer n get hurt...
like u not a mistake...
noe u wont like me n cont sacrifice 4 u is a mistake...
come on!!! b strong!!!!
dun think sumore...
enjoy my resting day dis weekend...
gonna work hard again starting next week ler...
fin assign n test...means final cumin...
must maintain my cgpa..dun let it fall...
fast fast fin this 4months++...
n proceed to my advanced diploma life...
LCY!!! u can do it!!!!

24122009 Christmas Eve

kinda many things to update ler..
coz this week rili many things happen on me...
can say malang week oso...
my christmas eve...
firstly talk about my christmas present..
my ong kui classrep kok wai...
organise an exchange present acitivity...
we bought our present n draw for the present...

our presents =)

all of us =)

(from left) yan mei, chee wei, tee han, chin shen, shih yun

(from left) joey, chee wei, mei ching, me =p


everyone gets a present luu =)

dis is my present from su xian =)

after that we all bk hometwn luu...
when i got hum..
a big mountain bike beside the christmas tree..
tat is my bro's christmas & birthday present...
he damn happy la..
last time jz bcoz i din lock the bike..den kena curi ady >.<
now my parents buy him a new mountain bike luu..
i tot wana go bath..
bt den mummy suddenly shout:
"there is a present in the christmas tree wor..."
wakaka...mummy said is mine...
guess wat...

4GB Philips MP4...

wakakaka...damn happy la...
mummy n daddy bought it as i said b4 i wana buy a MP3...
i can listen to music anywhere, anytime, as i like luu
no nid worry my phone's memory..wakaka
den at nite..
stupid me n joey went near jusco geh McDonald...

spend our christmas nite eve there...

my dinner...BigMac set...

joey's dinner...prosperity burger set..

BigMac burger and Prosperity Chicken burger

french fries & twister fries

stupid joey...wakaka

tat's me..wana eat my BigMac burger..haha

we sumore bring our laptop to McD jz to online there la...
there de line damn fast but unstable...
owiz disconnect...>.<

see that joey..eat sambil on9..

coz mummy n daddy worried...
so i have to bk hum b4 12am...
when i leave McD..
gonna take my car...
den oni i realise i nvr switch off the car light...
the battery was gone n my car could not start...
luckily ah seong is there to help me charge bk using cable...
bt joey n seong push my car out from the parking site...
so that the cable can be connected with seong's car...
damn fish la..blocking the cars in the carpark...
sumore a few uncles n aunties came near to help oso...
i spend my 12am driving hum...
wat a special memorable christmas eve i had ler...>.<

小宇 - 终于说出口

你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我

为什么要低着头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我

可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你 但从没认真说过

或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中(Yeah)
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
Oh不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖着我的手
握住的只是风

tat day wana find a topic...
suddenly ask u wat song to recommend...
dis is one of the song u recommend...
i download n read the lyrics...
hopefully...i noe dis is wat u think...wat u feel...
i noe is hard to go thru the fact..
u must b strong..
im sorry...ray...
dis sunday is ur performance...
+oil...do well...
im rili sry if i cant make it to see u on stage...

6 months??

2mr have a law mid-term test...
should be studying now...
dunno y..rili dun have the study mood...
getting lazy n lazier...
haiz...lidat how to go thru final la...
mind no study mood...bt simply think things again...
hmm...find u bk ler..
jz to c r u ok...c whether can u go thru it...
u seems not so ok..bt i jz hope to have bk simple chat v u..
dun totally putus the relationship...
dis 2 days din find u ady..seems u dun dare to find me oso..
jz call me once a day...
i can feel that u miss me...u hope to see me..
although u nvr say it out..
bt i cant do anything sumore..
sry ray..
da jealous feel cum bk towards another guy ler..
owiz lidat...ishhh...kinda tired la..
why bother??
hmm...wat will b after 6 months??
after graduate??
will separate v my ji-muiss...
all my coursemates n classmates...
will end the relationship v u ar?
can i rili start a new life v new frens, new environment??
am i rili goin penang to promote to advanced diploma??
finish dis sem2 1st la..so fast think 4 wat...
come on!! study mood gather!!!!
continue v my law...
qualification & disqualification of secretary n auditors!!
come in to my brain babe!! (gonna crazy >.<)

end??

i rili dun understand wat im thinking at all...
izzit i just 一时之气 say out??
last nite i tell u end everything...
u replied:
原来对一个不再爱自己的人
就算对她再好也没有用了。。哈哈
对不起 我不会再烦你了
你依然是我最爱的人
有什么事情想找人倾诉还可以找我
好好照顾自己。。拜拜。。我爱你
tears dropping...
u come bk to protect me, care me, sayang me, love me...
bt i rejected u...
jz bcoz u put too much pressure on me??
or jz bcoz i liked others?
u kinda forcing me??
u said goodbye to me..
bt now im missing u??
jz bcoz u din find me ady??
i dun wana hurt u...i dun wana make u heart pain...
u be v me 5 yrs b4...
jz now i saw someone's blog..
she oso broke v her 1 yr bf...
i saw her blog v many memories...
i think of u...
will i regret in the future as i gv up u?
i rili miss u now..
r u ok?? can u go thru it?

exhausted...

walao...2day jz fin 2 tests...
my brain rili full of things...
i nvr headache b4 de...
rili vvv less...
bcoz of dis 2 econ n fap test...
can make me 1st time so headache...
nw finish test ler..
kinda exhausted...
aikss..last minute study is lidat de ler...
fin test...im not happy v it...
test is over...i have no excuses to escape the problem ler...
rili dunno how to face it...
yday chat 1 hr n x mins phone v u (ex)...
until no results...
u wan me gv u an exactly ans...
i told u gv up me...bt u tend to ask me gv u a reasonably reason...
whr is there a reason??
the feel is different...n i like another ady...
yday i went his hostel...
i tell him im headache...he help me massage n went to buy panadol 4 me...
few days nvr get in touch v him...
yday all feel rili came bk...i dunno how to push him away...
feel wana close v him...
n he rili different from last time ler...
make me fall 4 him again...
i dun hope to hurt u...dun hope to make u crazy...dun hope to make u sad...
bt v nw are suffering...
u nvr change...is i changed!
wat is my correct decision???!!!!!

blast music...

rili 1st time lidat...
open the music loud loud...
blast it!!!
rili many things in my mind which i cant solve it...
1st time i close the door in my room...
the song are blasting...
things are flowing in my brain...
non-stop...
put down everything...sit there 发呆...
sud feel sleepy...
went to bed...
nvr reply him...leave my phone on the table...
now is the time awake...
bt i rili dun have lidat b4...
everytime i met problems...
i will tell any of my besties..
now i kept avything...
jz think there alone...
will i get 忧郁症 one day??
dun drop tears...
no big deal...

update...

again is a long time i din update ler...
actually waiting my fren to upload the pic den onli i update my blog...
bt seems there are some problem in there..
i oso dunwan rush them ler...wait them upload ler den oni i post luu...
bufday is over...
something unexpected happen...
my ex cum bk to me...
told me that he still love me...
let me realize there are many misunderstanding inside...
bt..it was too late...
i had fall into others d...
u suddenly came bk...how am i gonna react??
i noe i loved u the most...bt now the feel is not v u...
how am i gonna accept u again??
i dun hope to delay u...but i rili dunno wat to do...
even that i have no time to decide wat to do...
busy v assignments, mid-term...
i rili dun hope to think dis things to interupt me...
will u still wait by my side??

as my bufday...me n another gang of frens when clubbing...
went there v one of my besties...
she get drunk tat nite...many funny things happened...
da next day as she din go skul...
i was so excited n told my besties n frens wat had happened...
i nvr realise that i had talk too much...
even one of my fren had recorded down during my story time...
den...i start to found out that my besties dislike me...
how to describe her...
she is the most cincai, eveything oso say ok say fine...
not 计较 v us de...eventhough she angry, v fast will b ok de...
bt den i can do sumthg let her dislike me...
omg...can imagine how big mistake i did??
until now i didnt even noe actually wat i had did wrong...
jz feel that i did wrong make her so unhappy n dislike me...
i dun even dare to ask another besties or bring up dis matter...
jz nw saw u post in fb...
"U think UR BEST FRIEND is ur best friend...but actualy they think they are not>< sigh~~"
izzit talking abt me?? or im too perasan ady??
as i noe u dislike me...i try to avoid myself v u guys..
let u nonid pretend good v me...
start sked to near u...
haiz...im owiz a loser...owiz make u guys dislike me...
wat i had done?? i jz treat everyone gud...
treat u guys v heart...never lies...cares u guys...
wat i can help sure i will help...
the biggest weakness is that i realise my mistake after i have done it...
but its too late...
hope u will be fine soon...
v are forever best frens...>.<