question marks all over my head....

jz came bk from a kl kepong-setapak trip...
went to kl to c the college n hostel around thr...
v kok wai, yan mei, stephy n his bf...
special thanks to han jie for being our driver...
bring us here n there..
play NAMI thr..learn much...
feel free when hanging v them...
bt dunno y...after came bk...
after surfing the net...
starts to had bad feelings...
feel like wana cry sumore...
wondering wat's bothering me???
studies? boys? frens?

firstly...studies....
after looking around kl area...
goshhh....totally dun like there...
dunno how to describe oso...
tot whole gang of frens can live outside geh...
bt now thk thk har...
better stay temporarily in college geh hostel 1st ler...
let me biasa the place jor...
oni find outside the hse lo...
n the course...
still confusing btw AFA n AAC..
got so hard to decide meh???
y dis 2 kip bothering me ar???
AFA seems like goin to die lidat...
AAC seems useless lidat...
aiksssss....FAN ARHHHH!!!!!!
how much effort i can put on it ar???
im rili not a person hu likes study tat much...
not STUDY GHOST...
can i rili handle it??
the 1st question mark...

secondly...xxx...
dis guy...slowly dissappearing in my life again...
after tat meet feel that u changed...
izzit i rili tat bad ar??? i mean outlook...
yea..i admit im fat, i dun like make up...black skin...
den??? rili dunno wat u thinking abt...
2nd question mark...

thirdly...another guy...
dis wan more complicated...
tired...
no matter wat i do...
at last i get ntg...
if rili not suitable/impossible for me...
den god should take it away from me ar...
y still let me turning around inside it???
3rd question mark...

fourthly...frenss...
rili nvr thought tat v are goin to separate like this...
5 of us...oni me confirm goin advanced oni...
im goin thr alone...
v frens tat are not so close...
i choose to go in hostel alone...
looking for new frens n start my new life...
can i?? i'll miss them badly tat time...
in dis 2 yrs...v went thru many things...
arguements...study 2gether...play 2gether...
they were v me when i 失恋...
sumtimes too close de fren not tat gud oso...
bt i nvr regret b4 tat v were in dis group of 5...
decisions have to be made among us...
no matter wat v had chosen...
i oso hope tat v can go thru in smoothly...
will v cry 4 the last day??
will v still talk our sum si 2gether???
will v still so fren after v separate???
i rmb melon said b4...
best fren jau forever best fren...

i had no preparation of all these changes!!! T.T